Monday, April 19, 2010

Confusion

Sometimes dealing with Indian clinics on the other side of the world can be really difficult. It is so hard to wait with baited breath each time you log into your email and pray and hope for news. When you add on the cultural differences and business of the clinics it can be an emotional landmine.

Today, Brian and I received our doctor's email with the ultrasounds. It contained an attached ultrasound image but unfortunately none of the details we were craving such as if a fetal pole was present which means we have no idea of if there is a CRL that responds to the correct gestational age. The email was short and stated:

- There is a single pregnancy.
- The small black hollow between the two arrow marks is the gestational sac.
- The pregnancy is now 5 weeks.
- We shall check in about 10 days for the appearance of a heart beat.

Brian and I both have a lot of questions about the doctor's email because according to our calculations we should be 6 weeks 3 days along (The transfer was done on March 22nd). Since we don't have the size details associated with the ultrasound scan we don't know if the doctor was telling us that the developmental size corresponds to 5 weeks or if there is a miscommunication somewhere. If the developmental size is truly 5 weeks, then it is likely this is a non-viable pregnancy.

We were expecting to hear results on 4/16 and didn't get this news until 4/19. But it may still be too early. We can't tell when the ultrasound was done, it could be 4/12 or 4/17. On the JPG where it has the date printed, we can't be sure if we're looking at a two or a seven. Obviously if this is a very early ultrasound from 4/12, the lack of a heartbeat isn't the worst thing... but we don't know!

When we read that there was no heartbeat we immediately assumed that it meant the worst. So there have been the emotional brick walls hit (not simultaneously) and now we're uncertain, because this is probably inconclusive. So stay tuned!

12 comments:

  1. It is so easy to make conclusions even if we don't have all the information. I think our minds just fill in blanks and make assumptions that are often incorrect. So try not to! (easier said than done!)
    Keep pushing your docs for the information you need/deserve to have at this point. We'll be thinking of ya!
    Best of luck!

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  2. Completely understandable! You know our minds tend to 'wander' far & wide, creating many stories both welcomed and feared. There is a lot to be said for thinking positive & creating the 'story' that you want. The mind is an incredible, beautiful, scary thing. We are all pulling for you & waiting for every new post. When I didn't see a post on Friday, 04/16 (your anticipated date of ultrasound), my mind did some flips. (Aren't we all human: subject to this life & the path it takes?! Reality check!) Another life lesson? God, really? We're all holding our breath! But we need to focus on the desired outcome!!! In short, sending positive energy your way. We love you both so much. We want nothing more than a healthy baby for the most deserving couple we know.

    the word verification for this is cherub! like a little bundle of joy!

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  3. Hi Guys, dealing with the clinics in India is very hard, But if you are in any doubt when your scan was or have any questions, don't wait for days on end for an email just call them! If i know there is a scan due on a friday I call our clinic on the tuesday to ask what time the scan will be and when we will get the report,If we don't get it i call again! and again and again!!!! I know they don't like it but we need to know this information.
    Good luck guys. much love to you both. Will & Michael

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  4. I agree with Will and Michael. Don't worry when you don't have to - give your Dr a call.

    It will probably put your mind at ease!

    Much love to you both and thinking of you.

    xxx

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  5. I'm sure you guys are fine but you should let Mr. Rudy know about the feedback you're getting and your concerns. They need to *tighten* things up a bit if they want to be a player in the international market.
    Good luck!

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  6. Brian and Amber-please know that our family is praying for you. Try and keep your spirits up and enjoy your trip. Love-the Foresters.

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  7. Oh you guys. I hate that it has to be this way. Why can't the communication be clear and why can't the doctor add personal comments before sending!!
    Call the clinic and see if you can get some more clarity.

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  8. We completely understand!!! We're obviously not at the same stage as you, but we've been waiting for days and days to get answers on our egg donor/surrogates and their medications. Are they taking the meds yet? Is there an expected transfer date? Are we still moving forward? It seems like such a simple question, but it takes days and days to get any answers (and right now we're still waiting), and we're scared it will be like this all the way along. We've tried to be firm about our concerns with whitney a couple of times, but it doesn't make much difference - they are just so very slow at updates/ information. So know that there are other people who understand what you're going through... I'm sure your baby will be perfect, but we'll be saying lots of extra prayers for you as well

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  9. Could it be they are talking pregnancy age vs gestational age. Transfer on 22nd would be GA 6 weeks and a bit, but pregnancy age two weeks earlier (or did I get that round the wrong way).

    Either or, even at 6 weeks you don't always see fetal poles ... hang in there and do push for better and quicker information.

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  10. Oh Amber, i'm now catching up will all this, i know the pain of waiting and sleepless nights, especiallywhen your dates and times dont match up with the docs!!

    I continue to pray for u guys and wish u nothing but the best, and i will stay tuned...stay positive, i know its hard but try girl!

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  11. i am following you closely as your transfer was done the same day as mine. both of our beta numbers started out low but you made it to the first step. unfortunately we didn't but will try again though our doctor says it will take 4-6 weeks before a new surrogate is ready. you have so many prayers out there for you. it's amazing. what clinic are you in. we're in new delhi, communication is good and i don't know how the doctor handles it all. you have come so far, i can't believe it is 7 weeks already. breath, relax, call and email your doctor. it will be alright. keep us posted. baby dust and love. overtherainbow-coco.blogspot.com

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  12. Thinking about you guys at this confusing time. I'm hoping since you posted this you've received some answers. Thanks for sharing and keep blogging, it's helps you and all of us so much!

    D

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